Yellow Paint

It’s no secret that Vincent Van Gogh had a tumultuous life. Now regarded as one of the most influential and recognisable impressionist painters in history, he died at age 37 from a self-inflicted gunshot wound after suffering years of severe depression, anxiety, and frequent bouts of mental illness. For Van Gogh, the colour yellow was a symbol of happiness, and because of this, he used to eat yellow paint as he desperately thought it would get the happiness inside him. Many people decided he was mad for doing such a thing — because the paint was toxic — and it was blindly obvious to observers that eating paint could not possibly have any direct correlation to one’s happiness. 


 If you were so unhappy that even the maddest ideas could possibly work to bring you peace of mind and fleeting relief — such as painting the walls of your internal organs yellow — then of course you are going to do it. 

It’s really no different to falling in love or taking drugs; yes there’s a very tangible risk of getting your heart broken, or overdosing, but people still do it every day because for them – there’s always that chance it will make things better, that it will numb the pain… even for a little while.

Everybody has their own yellow paint.

Inspired: Rothschild Surrealist Ball

December 12., 1972: The annual Rothschild Surrealist Ball.
The requirements for the evening were “Black tie, long dresses & Surrealist heads” nothing more, nothing less. In keeping with the theme, the invitation sent was actually written backwards – to read the invite you had to hold it up to a mirror.
Now when money is no object (the Rothschild family were a super wealthy banking family), the only limit is ones imagination and it’s fair to say that Marie-Hélène certainly had plenty in supply. Firstly she insisted the iconic Château to be floodlit with sweeping amber lights, designed to create the illusion the building was on fire. Once inside, the entire staircase was filled with servants and footmen dressed as cats all in various poses of sleep.
And once you’d overcome that initial shock, guests were then forced to enter a hellish labyrinthine maze – where should you get lost, one of the “cats” would rescue you and whisk you away where you’d be formally greeted by Marie-Hélène Rothschild herself. On this particular night, she was wearing an enormous giant’s head that was crying tears of diamonds.
Even my favourite Salvador Dali was in attendance. Just imagine being there. Sounds like an intriguing (and clearly intoxicating) blend of art, literature, haute couture and dance. AKA, my kind of party.



As an avid etsy/Pinterest/polyvore/etc user, there’s a lot of random, weird and wonderful, bizarro shit I would ideally like to own. Every month or week (undecided as of yet), im going to conduct a blog sect titled Dream Possessions, consisting of ten awesome (and slightly, maybe, in some cases off-colour) finds on my wish list(s) – believe me, there’s many.

1. Charles Manson teapot


is this in bad taste? I dunno, but as a teen my fascination with Charles Manson began, escalating to the point where I changed my last name on facebook to ‘Manson’ some point in 2011 (‘Charlie Manson? geddit? Is that in bad taste? probably). But anyway, this teapot, to me, is kind of painfully desirable. waahhh.

2. Preserved Mummified Fetal Bat


If you follow me on Twitter, you’ll know I’ve been scouring the nooks and crannies of the internet (why can’t I just live in LA?!?! ‘necromance’ on melrose ave. anyone?) looking for a taxidermy bat. Originally I was very set on only etymology (a bat skeleton), because bat bone placement – especially their wings, is so pretty and intricate. But I came across this on etsy and think it’s stunning. Plus I love the ornate dome it comes in.

3. Jesus-on-a-crucifix-in-a-snowglobe-thing


I’m not religious whatsoever, but when it comes to religious figurines I really, really love them. I want all the life-sized wax figurines in the chapel at the end of Romeo & Juliet (1996) in my house. I think they’re really unnerving, which is why I’m drawn to them (go figure). Anyway, this snow globe, when you shake it, fills with red glitter to exemplify the blood of Jesus Christ. COOL.

4. Coffin bookcase


I’m really surprised I don’t already own a coffin-shaped book case. I’m even more surprised my mum doesn’t own one… This would be an edgy addition to any household, and as the picture depicts, you don’t just necessarily have to fill it with books – look at all the cute curiosities this bookshelf is displaying (i see you, ‘Rose’ portrait by Mark Ryden!).

5. Dali melting clock


Okay, this is really really cool. I definitely need to get one. Salvador Dali is one of, if not maybe, my favourite visual artist of all time. At first glance I initially thought this was just a display thing, but nope, it’s an actual fully-functioning clock. Why is this not in my life already? I must own it. I think when I’ve published this blog post I’m going to hunt it down online and buy.

6. Constellation globe


If you know me in real life, (which I’m presuming you don’t, so you’ll have to trust me on this one), you’d know how obsessed I am with astrology. I’m a bit horoscope mad (thanks mum). Anyway, so, naturally when I saw this, I felt an instinctive ‘it must be mine’ course through my veins. I think this is, or was, available at Urban Outfitters…of all places.

7. Gun hairdryer


I like anything quirky, and this would just immediately add +270 pts to anyone’s ‘quirk’ factor. It just beats a normal generic hair dryer, doesn’t it? It’s just… Cool. Anyone who own this is a bona fide cool person.

8. Lips and tongue telephone


It was between this and a Kit Cat Clock for the #8 spot, but since I just ordered a Kit Cat Clock a few days ago, I thought that was pretty void to appear on a ‘dream possessions’ list. This phone is covered in glitter and reminds me of some Club Kid, Rolling Stones, Rocky Horror hybrid. I also want a burger phone (like Juno has) maybe even more so than this, now I come to think about it…

9. Addams Family cards


Collecting and hoarding cards (picture cards, playing cards, tarot cards, etc) is something I can definitely envisage myself doing. I’ve ‘pinned’ and ‘liked’ a shit ton of cards of all variations; everything from Halloween-themed playing cards, to actual antique tarot cards from the 1850’s, to these vintage Addams Family playing cards. I carry a (regular) deck of cards with me in my bag everywhere I go, because, well, you can never be bored with cards. It’s literally impossible.

10. Frida Kahlo cushions


I’m a self-professed Art nerd, and Frida Kahlo is in my top 10 favourite artists. I have Frida Kahlo books taking up a good space of my room, a framed Frida Kahlo picture on my window sill, ‘Saint Frida’ styled candles, and even a Frida Kahlo phone case. I love not only the subject on these cushions, but the style and vibrancy of them. So pretty.

Albert-Joseph Pénot


Albert-Joseph Pénot was a French painter active from the late 1800’s to the late 1920’s, who was primarily known for female nudes.



Today, he is more specifically recognised for a subset of paintings portraying women in darker, more macabre themes.



His work is absolutely stunning. Definitely a favourite of mine and well-worth reading up about. Horrendously underrated, too (as all the best things tend to be!)